I look at the photos taken, and I cannot help but remember your pretty face, J. But it would never happen, I believe.
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J's face
13th April 2009
I look at the photos taken, and I cannot help but remember your pretty face, J. But it would never happen, I believe.
I look at the photos taken, and I cannot help but remember your pretty face, J. But it would never happen, I believe.
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Big regret?
11th April 2009
Maybe, one of the biggest regret that I don't have much control over was being in an all-girls' school. Not getting the chance to meet the opposite sex, thus, not knowing how to react around them. It sucks. It just makes me look pathetic not having much guy friends, not a single good guy buddy. I can't figure it out.
If my judgement is accurate enough, B seems to be acting weirdly, so weird it's suspicious. It's not exactly a good thing, to be honest. I just want to be good friends with B that's all.
Nc is apparently gay, but he's nice too anyway. He'd be nice as a gay friend.
Maybe, one of the biggest regret that I don't have much control over was being in an all-girls' school. Not getting the chance to meet the opposite sex, thus, not knowing how to react around them. It sucks. It just makes me look pathetic not having much guy friends, not a single good guy buddy. I can't figure it out.
If my judgement is accurate enough, B seems to be acting weirdly, so weird it's suspicious. It's not exactly a good thing, to be honest. I just want to be good friends with B that's all.
Nc is apparently gay, but he's nice too anyway. He'd be nice as a gay friend.
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If I am, you would too
3rd March 2009
I believe that if I actually still think about you, you do too. Well, if you don't, then why was your LJ entry as such, and why do you show signs? Am I just being the typical oversensitive girl? The one who gets paranoid when you go out with another girl? Because it seems, that you are just using the same old tricks on her.
I am sick of life. I am sick of returning to a house where all I see is clutter, a mess. Nothing changes, and will never change any day soon. If I manage to survive life through my pre-U schooling like this, it'd be a miracle. My mother and brother depend on me too much, I hate how it's so. I cannot stand the sight of this place ever, though I know I should be thankful of it at least.
In all honesty, I would never want to get into a relationship any time soon, even if the chance comes along. Never ever.
I believe that if I actually still think about you, you do too. Well, if you don't, then why was your LJ entry as such, and why do you show signs? Am I just being the typical oversensitive girl? The one who gets paranoid when you go out with another girl? Because it seems, that you are just using the same old tricks on her.
I am sick of life. I am sick of returning to a house where all I see is clutter, a mess. Nothing changes, and will never change any day soon. If I manage to survive life through my pre-U schooling like this, it'd be a miracle. My mother and brother depend on me too much, I hate how it's so. I cannot stand the sight of this place ever, though I know I should be thankful of it at least.
In all honesty, I would never want to get into a relationship any time soon, even if the chance comes along. Never ever.
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3AM Talks
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late night conversations 2nd April 2009
A started talking to me about his friend who just broke up with his partner. The late night conversation started leading on to awkward questions, leaving us ex-classmates to talk about our ex-es. I wanted to tell A about how ridiculous my past and only relationship was, but I was afraid he might have probably started laughing. Honestly, how ridiculous is it that we did not mention the word 'breakup' in our relationship?
A started spilling his thoughts to me, and eventually told me I'm first to know and would most probably be the only one to know his true feelings at the moment, how he feels for his ex. I was truly afraid where this conversation might have led to, but I was cautious as to direct it in the right direction. I started trying my best to advise him, and all he did in the end was to say 'nights therapist'. Not a word of thanks? I don't know.
But this talk has obviously left me checking back on my ex's Facebook pictures. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this feeling. It was obvious much during the conversation that we were both in the same situation, still seeing something in our ex-es, that very something. Just that I, did not tell A, but A told me he had felt that way. A, thanks so much for bringing these feelings out again (I mean it sarcastically if you don't get it) But as much as I would contradict, it was good having that heart to heart talk to you, A. I'd like to call you my good buddy in both serious and non-serious matters.
Anyhow it may be, Ws, I am going to forget about you one day. Even though T mentioned that what went on between us wouldn't be called a relationship, a bf-gf thing, but more of just dating (though I never really understood that), I still love you as my good friend, last time. Not anymore now.
A started talking to me about his friend who just broke up with his partner. The late night conversation started leading on to awkward questions, leaving us ex-classmates to talk about our ex-es. I wanted to tell A about how ridiculous my past and only relationship was, but I was afraid he might have probably started laughing. Honestly, how ridiculous is it that we did not mention the word 'breakup' in our relationship?
A started spilling his thoughts to me, and eventually told me I'm first to know and would most probably be the only one to know his true feelings at the moment, how he feels for his ex. I was truly afraid where this conversation might have led to, but I was cautious as to direct it in the right direction. I started trying my best to advise him, and all he did in the end was to say 'nights therapist'. Not a word of thanks? I don't know.
But this talk has obviously left me checking back on my ex's Facebook pictures. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this feeling. It was obvious much during the conversation that we were both in the same situation, still seeing something in our ex-es, that very something. Just that I, did not tell A, but A told me he had felt that way. A, thanks so much for bringing these feelings out again (I mean it sarcastically if you don't get it) But as much as I would contradict, it was good having that heart to heart talk to you, A. I'd like to call you my good buddy in both serious and non-serious matters.
Anyhow it may be, Ws, I am going to forget about you one day. Even though T mentioned that what went on between us wouldn't be called a relationship, a bf-gf thing, but more of just dating (though I never really understood that), I still love you as my good friend, last time. Not anymore now.
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Failed Relationships
1st April 2009
It's his birthday, and he is simply going on about his ex-girlfriend and her family, how he wishes she rot in hell, come back dead, the list never ends. I can understand why he feels this way. Who wouldn't feel this way after one's partner runs away with another man? Never thought she'd still be thinking about him, but afterall, it seems to be tracked down on statistic counters that she has visited. How can you ever forget the love showered on you for 10 years by your childhood lover?
This emphasizes more why not to get into a relationship, because things can go wrong anytime, and you would never forget every minor detail, even though you want to so badly.
No, this is not a joke, it's for real.
It's his birthday, and he is simply going on about his ex-girlfriend and her family, how he wishes she rot in hell, come back dead, the list never ends. I can understand why he feels this way. Who wouldn't feel this way after one's partner runs away with another man? Never thought she'd still be thinking about him, but afterall, it seems to be tracked down on statistic counters that she has visited. How can you ever forget the love showered on you for 10 years by your childhood lover?
This emphasizes more why not to get into a relationship, because things can go wrong anytime, and you would never forget every minor detail, even though you want to so badly.
No, this is not a joke, it's for real.
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